Goals and Manifestations | Mid Year Update

At the start of this year I wrote a blog post, which I later deleted, about how poorly I was feeling and how I was looking forward to 2018. It’s no secret, but something that I haven’t explicitly disclosed on my blog, that I have been suffering with anxiety and depression for a long while. The latter half of 2017 was one that I found incredibly difficult. I became more and more poorly until it got to the point where I was struggling to get out of bed in the morning – I left my part time job as I couldn’t cope (which I’m still gutted over as I loved it), and focused on ‘getting by’ at University. As much as I was struggling, I was determined to continue with life and get back on track. I set myself a couple of goals for the year, which I’m chuffed to announce I have achieved, alongside returning to blogging.

— ⋆*✧ I’m Graduating with My Friends ✧*⋆ —

Late last year and early this year I was absolutely delighted to have made new friends at University and I absolutely love them all to pieces. I knew the second I met them that we would get along well (even though I was super shy), and a few months on I love them all to bits. We have already shared so many positive memories together, and being able to graduate alongside them and my family was a dream for me. I was determined to make it to graduation, regardless of the grade, and I’m absolutely gobsmacked that I’m graduating with a first!

— ⋆*✧ I Passed My Driving Test ✧*⋆ —

My other big achievement of the year was to pass my driving test. I’ve only gone and bloomin’ done it! It took me a long time, four years on and off and with four different instructors. I also passed on my fourth test on the 4th July! (I think “4” must be my lucky number). I found the test quite frustrating as my instructor would constantly tell me how good I was, and that I was comparable to his other students who had passed their test, but I just always seemed to make a silly mistake on the day because of my nerves. But, lone behold, it happened. I thought I had failed, so I was utterly overwhelmed when the examiner said that I’d actually passed. It’s such a crazy thought, I could go out and buy a car, and drive it alone, tomorrow if I wanted to!

 
— ⋆*✧ I Am Loving My Blog, My Life and Myself ✧*⋆ —

I’ve worked hard this year to bring myself back, per se. I’ve been taking anti-depressants and engaging in talking therapy to help me talk through my irrational thoughts, which has really helped. I have a wonderful selection of friends from different walks of life, different hobbies, yet I care for them all incredibly and I know that they do for me too. I enjoy spending time with them and they seem to enjoy spending time with me too, whether it’s going out to take blog photos, going to alton towers or just relaxing together and catching up. I’ve started blogging properly again, as it took a back seat during the final year of my degree and I ended up falling completely out of the loop. Of course, it’s early days, but I’ve been going to blog events, uploading posts twice weekly (Wednesday and Sunday) and meeting wonderful new friends, both in real life and online. I now have the confidence to post outfit photos on my blog too – something I’ve always wanted to do but i’ve never been able to pluck up the courage. I may not be a millionaire, but I think I’m doing pretty well. I’m happy.

 

— ⋆*✧ Future Goals ✧*⋆ —

As much as I am happy with where I am, I don’t want to become complacent and I want to keep working towards a better future for myself. I still have five months of 2018 left, so it feels right to set some new goals for the remainder of the year.

Knowing that I am graduating, I’d now like to focus my energies working as a support worker with those with developmental disabilities (particularly autism, but I’m happy to look for other roles). I’m currently seeking part-time and voluntary positions as I already have a part-time job which I am loving. My views for the far future at the moment are to move away (possibly) and pursue a career in academia such as a PhD. I’m aware that it’s a very big commitment, so for now I’m happy following my other interests, but as my ultimate goal, that’s what I have in mind.

I’m also looking to gradually become self-employed with my blog, and earn a second income. This would be greatly beneficial for me as it will put me in a better position to save for things that I really want in my future (for example, a car!). I love blogging so much, and I’ve been doing it on and off for five years so it seems a shame to waste the opportunity to earn a little extra money from doing it.

I’d also like to travel a lot more. I’m actually travelling to London soon to attend a bloggers event and I’m going to have a look around and be a little tourist while I’m there! It’s actually the first time I’ve been so far on a train alone, so if it goes well I’d love to organise myself some more trips around the UK (and maybe out of it one day!).

Have you set any goals for 2018? How are they going?

 

30 Comments

  1. July 15, 2018 / 9:14 am

    What a great mid year update! Well done to you for graduating and passing your driving license, that it just amazing! All the best for the rest of your goals

    Melissa 🌙🔮 | Moonlight Mel

  2. July 15, 2018 / 11:59 am

    Brilliant update – well done you!! I just passed my theory test and I'm terrified for my driving test, so much so that I keep dragging my feet to book it!

    Good luck with your other goals!

    Naomi xo
    tralisty.com

    • July 15, 2018 / 12:07 pm

      Thanks Naomi!

      Please just get out there and do it! If your instructor thought you weren't ready he/she wouldn't let you go in for the test. I spent so long letting my anxiety get the better of me but I needn't have <3

  3. July 15, 2018 / 1:33 pm

    Wow! Well done and congratulations on your graduation and passing your test!
    I've got so many goals still to go for this year, I really want to drive now because I've been back from uni for a while now and feeling the pain of not being able to drive myself around! And then just getting my life back on track, I was pretty ill for the first half of the year and so I've just been trying to get myself ok again! <3

    Katie | http://www.katielclark.co.uk

    • July 15, 2018 / 5:43 pm

      Thanks so much Katie! You'll get there eventually!

  4. July 15, 2018 / 2:13 pm

    I love this update! Congratulations on your achievements!

  5. July 15, 2018 / 5:24 pm

    Congrats on passing your driving test! I also found that whole process incredibly stressful! Hugs to you!

    • July 15, 2018 / 5:44 pm

      Thanks so much Katy! I'm so glad I've done it! Big hugs xx

  6. July 15, 2018 / 7:22 pm

    Congrats on graduating! You’re doing so well, this is a lovely post x

  7. July 15, 2018 / 7:37 pm

    Really enjoyed this post! Omg you're so inspiring! Congratulations on your graduation and driving test. xx

  8. July 15, 2018 / 8:59 pm

    You’ve done so well in just 6 months. Congratulations in graduating; and a first is just fantastic! I hope the rest of the year goes as well for you and have a fun time in London! Xx

    Angelwingsandpetticoats.com

    • July 16, 2018 / 6:00 pm

      Thanks so much Alex! 😀 I'm super excited!

  9. July 15, 2018 / 9:36 pm

    Great post! Thanks for sharing. These past few years have been extremely challenging for me in life. I have found that paying attention to the way I was talking to myself in my head played a major role in my moods. I have been practicing positive self-talk. I agree about not wanting to get complacent and wanting to keep getting better and better. There is always room for improvement. I loved this post because you seem proud of yourself, as you should be! Graduation is exciting and good job getting that accomplished. Be proud, Cuz you've earned it!

    • July 16, 2018 / 6:01 pm

      Thanks Emily! I am super proud, it's time to stop being so harsh on myself. I used to say some horrible things about myself and I think that made things worse too. It's all about how we think! xx

  10. July 16, 2018 / 10:55 am

    I'm so sorry to hear things have been tough for you. I suffer from anxiety so can definitely relate. It sounds like you're in a great place right now though and have achieved some amazing things, you should be so proud! I hope the rest of 2018 is good to you 🙂

    Jenny
    http://www.jennyinneverland.com

  11. July 16, 2018 / 2:36 pm

    You've done so much already this year! Congratulations on your accomplishments so far, I hope you manage to achieve the rest of your goals x

    Sophie
    http://www.glowsteady.co.uk

  12. July 16, 2018 / 9:00 pm

    Well done you have achieved so much and should be proud! Best of luck with your goals, my other half works with individuals with autism implementing positive behaviour support and he loves his job, the volunteering will pay off!

    abbiejadewanders.co.uk

    • July 19, 2018 / 3:38 pm

      Thank you so much! That sounds incredible <3

  13. July 16, 2018 / 9:04 pm

    Sounds to me like you're absolutely killing it! Huge congratulations on completing your degree and passing your driving test 🙂 Hope the rest of the year is just as fab! xx

    Jessie | allthingsbeautiful-x

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